As servants of YHVH, our loyalty must be to Him. We are not to be bound to churches, groups, ideologies, or other people the same way we are to Him. This is one of the lies religious groups promote. It is something I have had to overcome; the idea that I was being disloyal or even disobedient to YHVH by leaving a particular group or fellowship.
When I attended school, 13 years of learning were housed under one roof. You came in at five years old as a kindergartener and graduated from the building as a senior 13 years later. It would have been ridiculous to keep a student in the kindergarten classroom for all 13 years. Each classroom was designed to advance the process of learning and they were all necessary groundwork for the end result. After high school, other institutions were available for more advancement and growth in specific fields.
This is not unlike “church” groups, except that the classrooms are separate churches and the building is the “church” at large. Is this beginning to make sense? At the beginning of my fellowship in the body of Messiah, I was led to believe - never stated explicitly, but always inferred - that my loyalty was first to denominational theology and second to the local body of which I was a member. Imagine the spiritual dissonance when I heard clearly from the Holy Spirit that I needed to leave a certain fellowship. Imagine the flack from leadership and fellow believers that were sure I was wacked.
Please, do not get me wrong. I am not advocating “church hopping” simply because you cannot get along with a certain person or opinion. Abba places us where we need to be for the specific reason of growing us up spiritually. At times that will be where we are and at others, it may mean a change. IF we are listening to His leading and giving Him the opportunity to show us why we struggle with someone or with an idea, He will be faithful to show us and we will learn something from it. What I have discovered is that most of the time it is me that needs to confess sin and die to self in that area so I can become more like Messiah. It was a shocking day when I discovered I was not always right (anyone out there identify?) Sadly, I find myself back on that track periodically and have to suffer through the derailing process that restores me to the proper path.
Abba will use others to accomplish this. Currently, I am part of a Spirit-led, growing, life-changing fellowship, a group of people committed to individual one-on-one with their LORD and Savior, as well as learning how to operate as the body part they are created to be within the body. We are learning to be transparent, honest, forgiving, compassionate, giving grace when flesh rises up and working through the mess instead of walking away with an arrogant chip on the shoulder and animosity stored in the heart for who knows how long, causing destruction and division. The physical body is a living organism that must be nurtured physically, emotionally, and spiritually, just like the body of Messiah. Simple concept, terribly difficult to implement.
No. It does not feel good, this dying to self and growing from one degree of glory to the next into the image of Messiah Yeshua. I can no longer have it my way. It is YHVH’s way. I would venture to say when Abba collected this little bunch of individuals, we each thought we pretty much had it together, and for where we were at the time, that may not have been all that wrong. I remember in school when I was at the end of the year and getting ready to move up to the next grade - it was called senior-itis, that hubris that puffed up. I also remember the slam-dunk of walking into the next level and seeing how little I really knew. We have been given an opportunity to attend this class in order to learn something new and life-giving. What we are discovering is that we all need to do some growing up and for now, THIS is the classroom where Abba has us. How long will we be here? Until HE lets us know we are ready for something else.
I am more than blessed to have such a loving and giving Heavenly Father. He chose a group of rag tag believers who needed each other but didn’t know it, and what He is doing is nothing short of a miracle. We are not the only ones in this place. I hear from others across the world who are being led similarly. A true BODY is being put together not unlike Ezekiel’s dry bones. From the dead, parched, disjointed pile of bones in the valley, HE is breathing life into His body parts and then putting the parts together to make a healthy, strong, working body that glorifies not itself, but the Creator of it!
Hallelu -YAH ! ! ! YHVH be praised!