Anger Anticipation luxurious desperation lips
Sighing marriage kisses bosom fire
Desire secret trust Devour Consume
Spurned hatred whisper Pleasure burning
Flattery deception attention crushed jealousy
Heart beauty Delight tears Joy
distress bed heart throb anguish Abandonment
All these terms or ideas are from the Psalms. They all pertain to intimate relationships and convey physical and emotional aspects of what we call love.
We were created for fellowship, that is: companionship; intimacy; familiarity. There is something about the words of David and later, John, that reflect a level of intimacy with YHVH that we don’t see anywhere else in Scripture. A personal understanding of the very heart and emotions of the Living God.
Were they the only ones to experience this? Is it only for a select few? Does YHVH want this for me?
1 Samuel 13:14 tells us that David was a man after YHVH’s own heart, in Hebrew - lev - the seat of awareness and understanding, tenderness. He desires us to enter into and identify with Him on this level.
What made David different? Examine the following insights into David's heart and desire.
Psalm 63 > O, God, You are my God; I shall seek You earnestly; my soul thirsts for You, my flesh yearns for You in a dry and thirsty land where there is no water. When I remember You on my bed, I meditate on You in the night watches. My soul clings to You.
Psalm 16 > I have set YHVH continually before me, therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoices. In Your presence is fullness of joy and in Your right hand are pleasures forever.
Psalm 36> I drink my fill of the abundance of Your house; and You give me to drink of the river of Your delights.
Psalm 27> One thing I have desired – to behold the beauty of YHVH. In the secret place of His tent, He will hide me
Psalm 42. As the deer pants for the water brooks, so my soul pants for You O YHVH , My soul thirsts for You
David’s emotions are laid bare in these passages. He is not embarrassed because He is acquainted with YHVH’s emotions and His love and compassion. YHVH was able to share with David His very heart – to trust him with his heart. I want that in my life.
David exercises opportunities to be serious, to vent, share his excitement, and has personal discussions and conversations with his God. This secret place of intimacy provides supernatural release of his own passions and desires as well as YHVH’s power in his life. It is a revelation of a God who takes pleasure in and delights in His people, even in weakness and immaturity.
David was a student of YHVH’s emotions. He sought to know what was burning in YVHV’s heart. He wanted to know his God.
Ez. 11:39 tells us we all receive new, soft heart when we say “yes” to Yeshua.
A hard soul/heart is full of anger, rejection, bitterness, resentment, unforgiveness, results of events/circumstances/perceptions. It creates a barrier preventing the new soft heart from being displayed or revealed. The barrier must be torn down to actualize total intimacy and transparency – soul healing brings a level of maturity and agreement between soul and Spirit. It is sanctification which opens us up to connect with our Creator naked and unashamed
One thing associated with David was his obedience – obedience without corresponding revelation of YHVH’s heart brings frustration and shame when we fall. David had personal knowledge of this – he failed on a number of occasions, but never lost his connection with his God. He never doubted YHVH’s passion and delight in him – regardless of his failures and weaknesses.
Often we assume YHVH is angry with failure and weakness because we don’t or can’t see the truth about how He feels about us. Scripture tells us it is not failure and weakness but rebellion that stirs YHVH’s anger. It is his kindness that leads us to repentance. When there is a “yes” to Him in our spirits it makes Him glad. If we do not get this, then we will run from Him when we fail or stumble instead of to Him as David did.
Why can’t I seem to keep the fire going? New believers have zeal and passion which flares up and eventually fizzles out. Most of us enter into another phase of our relationship with YHVH which includes sanctification, healing, learning obedience and this is a fire of a different kind and lasts longer than the first, but still ultimately loses its intensity.
Fascination with Yeshua/the Word/Spirit is the only fire that can replenish and sustain us for the long haul. We were created to be fascinated with Him – to drink from His rivers of pleasure. Only when we know what YHVH’s heart looks like can we know what we look like to Him. Only then are we able to stop being self-consious, and focus wholly and completely on Him.
Yhvh is anxiously waiting and beckoning to all who would enter this place of reckless abandonment and fearless devotion to Him. David is a picture of what Yeshua wants in His bride. Lovesick, giddy, passionate and totally enthralled. This is true worship.